Ditto - Trinity Panties.

I'm home and settled here back in D-town, and I forgot how much I love this place! 
It's honestly one of those things, that you don't appreciate until you go without. 
There is plenty of things that are bonuses about school; freedom, own place, no parental control, you can pretty much do whatever you want. But by the last few weeks of semester, you're tired of freedom, you want your home which you share with your family, you want parental control, and you want to be told what to do for once. 
So that's where I'm at, although I am a little unhappy about the way this winter break is panning out. It's the first Christmas without my Granny, Nonna, and friend. I miss them all like crazy, but especially now, because Christmas always inflames the heartache. But I am looking forward to the new Christmas traditions to be made, and the new memories too. That 's lightening the Christmas spirit at least a bit!
Signing off with a heart full of Christmas spirit, 
UBC Panties


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=03jNxDsEplk

Random song to enjoy, Love this Band!!

Home is where the heart is.

Home has never felt so good. Every part of it. Mom's cooking, the tunes, the footsteps above me in the morning, laughing with my brother...everything feels so nice. It makes my heart all warm and fuzzy! Everyone was still working or at school today, so I spent the afternoon scrapbooking with my mama. It was so great. I missed them more then I knew.  And even when no one is around (like right now), just listening to my music and being in the house makes me happy.  I really hope I don't put my family last when it comes to time over the break. I have a tendency to do that. I spread myself so thin, and leave my family last to spend time with. But I really want to spend quality time with them. I just love them so much! Of course I love my friends most definitely and wholeheartedly...But home is really where the heart is.  -Trinity Panties

I'm still here...

Well...I must admit I've been pretty absent, but I'm back and alive. Barely. I've stayed up way too late, way too many times, eaten way too much crap for my own good, and read so many textbooks I swear I'm cross eyed.  Now why would I do that? Good question.  Its hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, although I think I can see it now. Two days till I take the big boat home and I couldn't be more excited. It's the tiny light in my future that I'm dying to reach. Literally. Sorry, no study bug over here! Unless it's the kind of poisonous bug that kills you when it bites you. Sorry for the dramatics. I'm just so ready for this to be over. The sad thing is, I honestly don't want to come back. Well, I don't think I will want to. Guess we'll see. I'll let you know if I'm dread the return of school. ( It's likely) ...until then... I am going to soak up every moment with my panty sisters, my family, my friends, and...my bed.  I'm not gonna let it slip away when I've waited this long for it.  I'm just praying for persistence and productivity.  -Trinity Panties. (remember me?)


artwork of the dayyyy...

Erica Grim-Vance, Reaching

The Study Bug.

I am here at University going through my first exam period. I kind of want to shoot myself, but on the other hand I really like it...does that make any sense? It's probably due to a lack of sleep and over studying topics that are irrelevant in most cases.
But regardless, I have caught the study bug. I have been in this room since 11:30am, and it is now pushing 10pm. Dedication or insanity could be two words used to describe this.
I know that all those followers out there (aka Hailey) that are going to university right now feel the stress, and hometown, I am sure that at work things are just bustling with Christmas anticipation, so I am sure that we all feel the same stressful spirit in the air. And the anticipation is killing me.
But the nicety of it is that I can just sit here in this room, and study away. No need to be social, no need to go out of my way to be friendly, no need to look good, I mean honestly, who am I trying to impress? But most of all, I can just focus, with no other obligations but my studies. I feel so scholarly.
Anyways, back to this boredom.
Off for the night,
UBC Panties

10 days, 12 days, 16 days, 1 month.

SO MANY EXCITING DATES.
-Today is a good day. There are many reasons for this.
First off: I got to sleep in more than usual, and that was awesome.
Then today was payday and that allllwayyyss makes for a good day! Especially when it's more than you were expecting!
New jackets? When you spend your whole life at a rec centre, new jackets to replace those ugly red fleece things is totally exciting!!
When this all came to mind as I rolled out of bed, I searched for my friendship panties as they just came out of the wash and I thought, what could be better? :)
PLUS got to visit with my Pa, which doesn't happen much because of my crazy life..
Now for the days...
10 DAYS.
My best friend who I talk to everrrryyy day and have been counting down the days until he's home for xmas is now 10 DAYS AWAY. 
12 DAYS.
That's how many days until Christmas at my dads house! (Winter Solstice. :) ) No more to be said.
16 DAYS.
REAL CHRISTMAS. Jingle bells... :D
ONE MONTHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyone take a guess?
Oh yah, that's until I'm Australia bound! :D :D :D
WOOHOO.


Oh I forgot.. I went over to the concession to drop off some coffee pots today and pretty much came back with a summer job. 
Worth it? Definitely!


Much love to the pantie sisters and am hoping exams are going well!
Hometown Panties. <3

Dissatisfied.

Dissatisfaction is a terrible word.
I have been feeling just that though. I am dissatisfied.
I was trying to find peace this weekend. I tried so hard to put things behind me, but I couldn't. Hard as I tried I couldn't. I spoke of Victor in one of my previous posts and this is the thing that I couldn't let go of. 
I know that all of my posts have been kind of depressing to say the least, but this is all supposed to be honest, and this has been so on my mind lately that I can't seem to shake it. 
I wrote Victor a letter. It sits on my desk at home, with no destination. I wrote my honest raw feelings in it 2 days after the accident and then sealed it. Since that day I have been curious as to what I wrote in it. I know the just of it, but there is things that I don't even remember. 
I made the decision that it was time for me to send that letter; so on the saturday, I woke up at 6:40 (which is quite a feat in itself for a university student) and climbed into my car with the crash sight set as my destination. I was in need of something. My fight with my heart had become so static that I needed to try and get my healing started again. 
So I drove. And I drove. And to my dismay, I couldn't find it. I arrived in Cobble Hill just before 8, and drove until 9:20. I called my mom, and got opinions from local business, and for some reason nobody could tell me how to get to Filgate road. Closure - I guess it was too much to ask for. 
I was mad at God. I was furious. Not only had I wasted the morning, but I was left frustrated and more broken then before. 
And now, I am trying to find peace with this. Peace with the fact that God didn't want me to be there that morning. And peace with the fact that the letter addressed to Victor still sits on my desk - return to sender. 
So that's where I'm at. I am in a stalemate with God, which is a ridiculous analogy considering that God never asked me to be at war with Him, nor is my anger even justified. I am just so tired.
Feuding with the almighty is never good for the soul, but here I am. 
Dissatisfied.
Hopefully I can sort this out, but until then, 
Sincerely and sombrely yours, 
UBC Panties.

Travel light, and don't rush.

First off, sorry for yesterday's post. I was a little emotional. A feeling I've nicely avoided in the last little while, so a quick post helped take a bit of the load off my back, but I wasn't up for explaination.
I guess all I need to say is some people take out their emotions in certain ways, and sometimes it takes a while to figure out why they are acting the way they do. There is often an underlying reason, and often you just need to give it time and it will become clear.
Either way, my momma loves me and I know that for sure. She's going to miss me allllmossssttt as much as I will miss her. <3

Today I visited someone very important to me. Teacher, mentor, friend, whatever you want to call her. She's an amazing person and I look up to her with so much passion. She told me tons of advice, but the main bit was, "Travel light and don't rush." Her advice means so much to me and I would follow it any day. (Ps. That's todays words of wisdom.)

Sometimes, chatting to different people changes your outlook of life. I can't wait to travel and meet people from all over. I'm hoping this is a very fulfilling experience, and I don't see how it won't be. :)

17 days until someone very special to me comes home!! :)

Looking forward to living,
Hometown Panties.

The Christmas Spirit.

Well yes, it would seem I have been bitten. Bitten by the Christmas spirit.
I went to my  first Christmas party of the season/there was a birthday cake for me (thank you fellow teammates) as well as a surprise birthday gift from my bud. Then there was secret santa, and my team knows me so dang well that I got the most beautiful shirt and mug, as well as a Starbucks card which for a university student is basically a lifeline.
But the best part was that among the wondrous happenings of Christmas festivities, I sat down and had a philosophical chat with a girl from my team. A seriously philosophical chat. We talked about God, and identity and racism, and she is such an intelligent and truly beautiful girl from the inside out. I learned a bit about her heart, and because we are so different in so many ways, it opened my eyes to the prejudice that she feels on a regular basis for being the sexual orientation that she is. She is so incredible.
But I digress. It was fantastic to chat about something that matters, especially in such a materialistic season, and talk about the real reason for the season, aka, the Big Man Up Top and His Son Jesus. ( I wasn't sure what the capitalization on the last sentence was, it is a noun, but I don't think anyone has ever used that formally hahaha)
It was the best day I had in a long time, and I am so ready for the last class of my first semester of university tomorrow. Where has the time gone? Seriously.
Sleep is long overdue,
yours in the Christmas Spirit,
UBC Panties.

Challenges.

The moment when you actually decide to do somthing for yourself and it's the one time you upset people for not pleasing them.
- I hate trying to make decision when you know it upsets others.

Forgetting to sign off,
Hometown Panties.

Sunshine, lollipops, and rainbows.

Today I've been thinking of writing all afternoon... but 4:45 in the morning makes you lazy.
So here's a quicky! (Get your mind out of the gutter!)
- First off, sun makes me so happy and I didn't realize I was missing it until it shone high up in the sky today and made me smile!
- After thinking about that, the song that, the title of this post came from became deeply rooted in my skull, and I sang it all the way up the road, dog in tow.
- My. Flight. Is. Booked.
----- I'm off this rock January 9th. First reaction- sheer excitement, followed by second reaction- PANIC.
40 days.
That is NOT a long time. I'm startin' to freak about everything that needs doing... but I must just take it day by day.
Either way. YAY!!!
- Had dinner with one of my long-lost-in-touch-with best friend today and got all caught up over a pair of Shirley Temples. Oh the memories. 
- Ending off the night (early!!!-thanks to 5:30 am work day) with some cozy PJ's and a skype. :)


Much excited, nervous love!,
Hometown (for 40 more days) Panties. <3

Bitter Sweet

Well, none of my classes were canceled today, but I still found some time to update on the blog a little bit.  As UBC panties said, there really is a bunch of other things I could/should be doing. But heck, this is important too.  Finals are coming, and I don't even know if I'm am going to be able to make it.  So many papers to write, textbooks to read, art assignments and then exams! I might die if Christmas doesn't come any sooner. And it doesn't help that parents like to play devils advocate. Like really? Aren't they suppose to just hold me and say 'there, there, everything will be okay'? And send me packages that don't include 'Herbal Tea for Weight Control'? Maybe thats too much to ask.  Either way I'm excited for this long stretch of no sleep and studying to be over, even if that means making amends with the rents so they will accept me back into their home (this is an exaggeration). But until then, best of luck on your exams UBC panties, and, Hometown panties, I hope you find some time to relax.  Only a couple weeks more ladies, until the reunion!


Being the Art student, I'm always finding new artists that express how I'm feeling in their own art work...so instead of a song of the day....mine will be Masterpiece of the Day... This ones by Daniel Lumbini...


Trinity Panties

Every Man's Martyr

Cancelled. Again.

Well for the 4th time this month, my English 110 class was cancelled.
So instead of being productive and studying for finals that start in 5 days, I thought I'd blog (not insinuating at all that this isn't productive, just enjoyably so when I should be doing something along the lines of psych or philosophy which is equivalent to gauging my eyes out)
But I thought I'd give you a quick lil' update on my little life. I have been so ridiculously busy the last little bit and am soooooo looking forward to the holidays when I will literally be care free.
But seriously, I am a paying student and I'm actually a little ticked my class was cancelled again!
Well in truth, I guess I'm just mad I didn't check my email sooner, so I would have been able to sleep in...I think that's the most aggravating part. I was up and ready to go before I read the email....piss me right off.


There's my rant for the day, hometown - I meant every word I said in that little quote from yesterday, and I thoroughly enjoyed the tattoo picture as well as the person who posted it on your Facebook wall :)
(yes this is an indirect shout-out to Miss Hailey and an 'I miss you/see you soon' :)


Yours in sleepiness and procrastination, 
UBC panties.

Stand Tall.

One of my dear friends knows me toooo dang well, and found this picture...

... and OMG I just have to have it. Haha. 
I have always been against getting a tattoo myself unless it had some huge sentimental meaning, but this is just toooo cute and totally me. Besides the actual height thing... ;)


Anywho, it's just the cutest and I had to share.
Today was crazy busy as always, but a good busy today, and although I lost a babysitting job tonight, I gained a free evening that ended up including; lots of dog walking, jazzercize, food, and skype. So really where could we go wrong? Still have some chores to do, but sleep will sure come easy tonight!


One wiseeee, young friend told me today... *cough* UBC panties *cough*... "I miss you more than yesterday, but not as much as tomorrow." How darn freaking cute is that!!?? Bah, I have the bestest friends. I'm going to miss them farrrr tooooo muccchhh! <3 <3 <3 
Come adventure with me please? :)
Ps. I like this font better....


Tip of the day: Hug always, hug often. 
You never know which hug will turn out to be your last. :)


Smiling with a sideways ponytail,
Hometown Panties. 

A Gift.

I had a dream last night which I think was an indirect gift from God. 
I'll give you a bit of a background story first so you'll understand. 
I had a friend, who I was in love with for the better part of 10 years. He was absolutely fantastic in every single way, but we went to different high schools, and although he still had my heart for awhile, I managed to kind of push it to the back of my head. 
This summer on July 7th, he passed on. He fell asleep at the wheel and just like that his life was over. 
I miss him like hell every single day I walk this earth. 
But last night, I had a dream about him. I was at the church that we went to together for our whole lives, and he was there. But we all knew it was only for a little while. For some reason we all knew that he had to leave us again. So people came and went, and I stood at the back of the room watching him interact and talk to people, waiting for my turn to talk to him. 
And just like that I had a moment completely alone with him. Everyone else disappeared and it was me and him. Not a single word was spoken, but he closed the distance between us and hugged me. If anyone reading this knew Victor, he gave the most amazing hugs. And for a few brief seconds, I was hugging him again. For real. 
And then his family came, with wan smiles on their faces and he left with them, knowing this was the last time we would see each other. 
Solemn and sure I went out to the parking lot, where I saw him and his family climb into their Volkswagen van looking so complete and whole. And I cried. Good tears, the kind that cleanse you, not drain you. And there was my grandpa beside me. Holding my hand, crying with me. 
I woke up and felt one last salty tear roll down my cheek. 
It was the best birthday present I could have ever asked for. 
Thank you God.


UBC Panties.

Sigh...

Some days just deserve a sigh.
What a weekend. Aren't weekends supposed to relax you? I guess that's when you're a kid..
Friday I had no time to sit down for more than maybe 20 minutes let alone get some food.
I got up, showered, went to work, walked dogs, got gas, went straight to babysitting about 15 kids for 3 hours.
From there I went home and nearly passed out, but managed to scarf down some pizza (THANK YOU TO PIZZA FRIDAYS) and then rushed back to my real home (the arena) for the other half of my shift.
From there I went to the Christmas party which was the most fun I've had in a while, involving dancing (with and without stripper poles), laughs, giant snakes and ladders, presents, and rockstar shots.
Not to mention being called profanities, being tackled to the ground, and having cell phones thrown at me.
Sound fun? Well it was!!
Bed was an amazing place until 2 in the afternoon on Saturday.. but work came so fast at 5pm.
Working at the other arena under extreme stress conditions showed me just how much I love my KP family and how hard it will be to leave them behind.
Sunday was lazyish, but still making the $$$.
I wanted a nap... but hockey has snuck up on me... sigh... (see, it fits).


Tip of the day, (I'm gonna start doing these): Watch The Wiggles every once in a while. Relive your childhood. It's so worth it.  :)


Sighs both good and bad,
Hometown Panties. <3


PS. Trinity Panties, way to follow the colour code... I'll fix it for ya! ;)

L.IF.E

Woke up this morning and stepped into my 18-year-old life.
The age old question - Do you feel any different? HA. No. 
But it's the same every single year, but somehow, in the midst of feeling no different at all, I'm 18. Where did the time go? My little cousins where over today, and it was like I was looking at myself from far away when I looked at them. And when they say "They grow up so fast," It's no joke. And now I see where the tears in the parents eyes come from as they say it. It's not only because they are losing their baby girl, it's because they know that things won't be wonderful and naive forever. We're going to feel pain, we're going to feel remorse, we'll feel the weight of guilt and cry in sorrow. 
And we're going to lose people we love. Yes, they will be ripped away, and grieved for. They will be torn out of our hearts leaving one giant gaping hole that nothing can fill, and a hunger for their company that can't be satisfied. 
I guess this is a little morbid, especially in light of the fact that I am currently celebrating a landmark birthday. But hey, we're all entitled to a little masochism occasionally aren't we? Maybe I'm just feeling old.
Song of the Day, Southbound Train, Jon Foreman. 
Check it; http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RyymdvWIQlA


UBC Panties.

Blah...

Don't you hate those 'blah' days...perhaps it's the weather but it seems as though I've been having a lot of those recently.  You just so out of energy, but not tired enough to sleep, and you spend hours doing you homework but nothing really gets done.  So annoying.  Yesterday was one of those days for me, as you could've guessed.  And because I had been sitting in my small (this is an understatement) all day, I was feeling a bit restless...anyways I found this picture, I cracked up for like 5 mins, then wasn't feeling so blah anymore.....TWU panties

Hopefully this gets you out of a 'blah' rut too.

True Blue

Okay so this is my first post from good ol' TWU...after the nagging from one of the other pantie friends who was on my case... so I put down the books for a little while to share a bit about last week or so.  So to start this post off, I need to make it clear that I am not the biggest fan of personality tests, but one of my classes required me to take one this semester (what's that about, right! Such a dumb class)....So after several pointless questions I discovered my personality was 'Blue'.  Yeeep Blue. Basically I'm a peace maker but place my troubles on other people too much. I'm good at expressing how I feel, but I cry too much. I have a 'good moral conscience' but try to please too many people.  And pretty much...over-emotional.  I hate to admit that some of it was somewhat accurate (okay, very accurate). But being put in a box is no fun. I guess it's good to know these things about yourself, so you can work on them and whatnot. 


So all in all, I guess it was worth the ten minutes of my time. Especially because the best thing I read about being a Blue person is that they seem to attract those real True Blue friends. And I must say, this is true. A got myself a pair of True Blue friends right here:) And no matter what colour they are, or what colour I am...we'll always be True Blue Friends.




Truly, Trinity Panties

HOMEHOMEHOME

I'm headed back to the place I originally hailed from. Haven't been there in quite some time. 
Eagerly anticipating seeing everyone, but also weirded out by how much everything will have changed since I last was there. 
Should be an interesting weekend. 
My complaint for the day is that the rain is ridiculous, and my umbrella blew inside out. I am soaked.
On the bright side, I'm sporting a new ear piercing. Yay for spontaneity, friends, and sisters. 
Song of the day is Somebody Good - The Swell Season. I'm in a sad love song mood lately. I think it's the weather on this west coast. Liquid sunshine I tell ya.


Homeward Bound, trying (and failing) to stay dry, 


UBC Panties.


PS, here's the link to this excellent song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zcWDDZ_G1rQ

Something Borrowed.

I hate when movies are too relatable to your own life that it hits you right close to your heart.
Especially when the boys are far too good looking. 
That's my complaint for today. I was also going to complain about losing my debit card, but I found it!


It's miserable outside, and I'm so tired.. not as enjoyable as my first day off in 8 days should be, but it's still a day off. Well... until I have to babysit later.
       Right. I said only one complaint for today. My bad.
Anywayyyyss I looked at backpacks today and got a Visa ordered. :D 
Happiness!!


Hopes for less rain,
Hometown Panties.

First!

First Post here I come!
University is grand, especially the greatness of admiring boys from afar in the cafeteria. I mean seriously, he's Austrian, tall, tanned, rides a longboard...if the longboard didn't sell you then I don't know what will. 
But for me, this day has been full of relaxation. Thank you hometown panties for the wonderful song, listening to the remix as we speak. 
But seriously. What is it with people these days and remixes? The song was great before!!!


Anyways, keeping it short and sweet for numero uno post. Here it is.
And though it seems strikingly hilarious that all I really talked about was Patrick (yes know his name due to Facebook creeping skills honed by procrastination) I really am not boy crazy. Hometown and Trinity can attest to that, it's just fun to gaze occasionally. Window shopping is just fine if you ask me. 


Peaceeee Outttt


UBC Panties :)

Big Jet Plane

Big Jet Plane is the song of the day.

First of all this song is never the wrong choice to listen to unless you're having a dance party.

It's chill, but you can still sing along and jam to it in your car. It's good for when you're happy, but also when you're sad. And you know what? I'm sure there is some remix of it out there somewhere in the world that would make it useful in a dance party situation.

HAHAHAHHA I knew it! What has this world come to.... if you want a rave.. here you go...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AksQtHq_lYc&feature=fvst

...it feels seizureific. 

I can't handle that. BUT that did prove my point!

ANYYYYWAYYYSS... back to my point. It is the song of today for sure.

It's a little gloomy outside, but I'm reasonably relaxed (surprising I know) and it fits my mood well.

The other main reason it works so well is because alllllll I can think about these days.... is my soon to be RIDE ON A BIG JET PLANE. I can't wait. Stay posted for hourly updates! ;)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yFTvbcNhEgc&ob=av3e

(There's the REAL song for those who don't know it. :)

Peace and love,

Hometown Panties <3

Kick start.

My friendship panties started off today in a good light. 

       Inspirational really!

Who wouldn't want a 13 hour day!? Well.... let's look at it a new way... instead of being 12 hours into my day... I'll be 120$ dollars into my day!! That sounds much better...

Anyways... Tim Hortons has been my saviour today, and friendship panties of course!

Without them, how would I have had this genious idea!!?

Much love to the sisterhood. Always in my heart. <3

Lovingly, 

The Hometown Panties. :)